Dear Mom,
3 months oh how the time goes. Its bitter sweet each month that Molly gets bigger, losing you gets further away. I just spend so much time thinking about you, your legacy and love. How you were absolutely the best mom and friend on the face of the earth. How you meant so much to sooo many people, the way that everyone always loved you.

Grandma, Babe, Molly and Jason took a walk down the hiltop hill to the sundial bridge today. Man that hill is alot harder pushing the stroller with 50 pounds in it. But being down on the bridge brought so many memories of times that we went there. The time we spent there with Lauren and Emma. And the early days of Kara. How we never knew what would happen in just a few short years. It's like time was stolen away. And it sucks, and I miss you.... But all I can do is try to make you proud and keep your memory.
Love Always,
Kristen

Dear Mom,
I made cut up hot dogs for the kids tonight. I was telling Kara how you used to cut them p and cook them when I would get home from kindergarten, and we would watch All my children together. Ah to be 5 again. I was just as hooked as you, but I only cared when Jenny was on, and rememebr how I cried when she got blown up in the jet ski accident. Ahh so many good times.
I love you.

Dear Mom,

Another day. You have been gone for two months now. I miss you so much. I wish you were here. Molly is starting to smile more and more. And she is trying to do the roll from her back to her front. But she can't do it yet. Kara and Jason are the same. Just bigger and talk more.
I can't wait to see you again someday. I love you.
Kristen

Dear Mom,
Memories play in my head all day long of you....The most recent one that keeps repeating it's self, is when we went to Byrons t-ball game when I was 9 months pregnant with Kara. And I was sitting in front of you on the bleachers and you were patting my belly saying that Kara or Connor (as we didn't know it the baby was a boy or girl yet) would know who you were because of your pat. That they would know you were their grandma. And Kara does know. She loves you so much.(and she's not the only one).
This is the time of day when I miss you the most. The time where the kids are in bed and I would normally call you and chat up a storm. About what we did that day and catch up. I miss that.
Love,
me

Dear Mom,
New years eve. Going to begin a new year with you gone. For some reasons I am glad to say goodbye to 2009. 2010, it's hard to believe that its 2010. Crazy.
Tim's dad is going to watch the kids tonight, so Tim and I can go out and have dinner tonight. It is the first one I have had off in sooooo long. It will be fun. Although we will be home well before Midnight.

Cleaned out Kara and Jason's rooms today, they have so many new toys, that we had to make room for them. I just can't bear to get rid of anything they got from you. I saw Melvin and gave him a hug. Kara knows that you got her that frog when she was born.

Love for now,
Kristen

Merry Christmas Mom,

Our first without you. It was perfect only missing one thing, you. Its hard for me to think of spending the rest of the Christmases with out you. I just wanted to turn around and see you.

Last night Christmas eve party Kara, Jason and Molly were three of the five kids there. Not too many, we were saying that others need to get on the ban wagon and help out. Adam and Traci, Holly and Matt, Jen and Adam, Tony and ?. :) Tony, Holly and Jen said that I should have 2more kids to buy them more time. I said haven't I done my share?

Uncle Dave was Santa again. Kara came around the courner right into him. He said "excuse me Kara". Man you should have seen her eyes! And she got her present and sat on down.

Molly was the hit of the party and got passed around to everyone. Jason just ran and ran and ran.

This morning we woke up and Santa had been here. Kara got her pillow pet, she asked for. Jason got his choo choo trains he asked for. And Molly got her bumbo. ITs so cute, how did I not get one for the other kids? She likes it.

Dad went insane crazy, Jason didn't even get through his bag of toys. He just wants to play with it all! So we got activities for weeks, I hope.

I got Dad and Grandma calenders with pictures and dates on them. They were pretty cool. I am going to order another one for me. And Granny. Grandma cried when she opened it. So many pictures so many memories.

Tim got me the most special present. A locket with your picture in it. You were with me last night and all of today. I could feel the love for you.

Love Always,
Kristen

Dear Mom,

It's hard not having you here. Noone to call right now when I am bored on Saturday night that I have off. Yesterday and today have been really hard. I am coming to the realization that we are about to have Christmas with out you here. And it sucks. I am almost done shopping though. Molly poor girl I haven't gotten her very much, some binkies, a toy and a couple onesies and a sleeper. But that's it. But she won't even notice (I hope). Jason and Kara are going to be spoiled like normal. Jason got the thomas the train set, and Kara is getting a pillow pet. Now let me tell you, this year the pillow pets are "the" gift. And she wanted the unicorn one. Well this Santa wasn't about to pay 3 times the price for one. So she is getting a turtle one. But I got her to ask Santa for the turtle on instead. Speaking of santa, yesterday we got the kids picture taken with santa. When I took Jason off Santa's lap I accidently pulled off his beard oops.

Sounds like dad has gone overboard with Christmas for the kids. Just keeping up with your tradition I guess. He misses you. We all wish you were here right now. I can't wait to see you again, I love you.....(Gotta go Molly just started crying)....

Love Always,
Kristen