Dear Mom,
Happy Mothers Day!, I Miss you so much today!
So much has happened. let me start at last weekend. Adam and Traci got married. It was beautiful. Absolutely perfect only missing one thing. And you know it was you. The setting was so nice out by the water and it was a perfect day, not too hot, not too cool. Kara and Gracie were perfect flower girls. Kara, tossed the flowers out down the aisle and got way into it by throwing them in the air. The ring bearer carried a Rusty Wallace car, so cute! Traci looks so pretty in her gown, and Adam not too bad in his tux. And you should have seen Dad! He cleaned up nice. (although he has gotten pretty skinny here lately). Adam and Traci, wrote their own vows, but pledging to keep Sunday afternoons, for NASCAR. During the ceremony they were each given a white rose to give to their Mom's, yours was placed on the empty seat between Dad and Grandma. After the ceremony Granny and Grandpa took the rose and are going to try to root it. Afterward they took 1 million pictures and then came inside for dinner. Which was nice, toasts and cake which was also delicious! Absolutely a beautiful day. You would have loved it. I know that you would have been so happy.

Then came Sunday and we drove to Disneyland, you know the happiest place on earth! Dad joined us Monday and Tuesday and part of Wednesday. We all had lots of fun. We found out Kara wasn't afraid of anything, including the Tower of Terror. An elevator ride that drops you several stories, several times. Nor was she afraid of Darth Vader and fought him in the Jedi training school. So cute!
Many times while at California Adventure I thought of you. Of our trip there when we went to soap weekend. I would look at something and say, that's where we met, this star or that star, or that's where we had breakfast or lunch. You were everywhere.

We also meet up with Kristie, and had a good time talking to her. And having fun.

Mom it was such a busy week but you were there with us the whole time! Oh and as Kara says, you are her best Grandma! :)
Love Always,
Kristen

Dear Mom,

Less than five weeks until Adam and Traci's wedding! So exciting! Kara just got her shoes this week so she's all set. Molly got a dress, and Tim a shirt. Now just Jason and I are left to dress. I tried on some dresses Saturday and liked a couple. But all I had was Kara to tell me if they were cute or not (let me say I miss your opinion).... I am hoping to get to go shopping later this week with Arwen or Jenn and get something cute.

Last week we went to Avanti travel and booked Disneyland! We got 5 days and 5 nights at the disneyland hotel! And 5 days at disneyland. So excited! I can't wait! Dad is going for 2 days of it. Man I wish you were going.

Molly is getting big, she began rolling over now. Crazy she is almost 5 months old. Just means that your being gone is that much longer ago.:(

Your grandkids are driving me crazy right now! AGHH! They won't go to bed! Well except Molly since she is being a good baby....

I love you always,
Kristen

Dear Mom,
Sorry it has been so long since I have written, almost a month. actually a month tomorrow, 4 months since you have been gone....

I still miss you so much. I have been looking at old photos and I can't help but remember so many good times with you. How you are such an inspiration to me. I strive to be like you, to raise the kids with love and compassion and show them how to be good people like you have taught Adam and I. I want to be like you. No one ever had bad things to say about you. Everyone loved you so much.

Adam and Traci were her this last weekend, we went to Fatboys for dinner and it was yummy of course. then Sunday we went to Sailing boat, where Jason pretty much demanded my soup, something that you normally shared with him. Guess I will have to get him his own from now on. Food was good, company great, just missing a piece of all of our hearts.

Kara has been talking about you alot. How you give us hugs and send them down from heaven and kisses too. Don't worry she won't ever forget you....

Molly started sleeping through the night! YAYAY! It's so nice!

Well we are all getting excited for Adam and Traci's wedding, we talked about it alot when they were here, and Kara is stoked to be flower girl and wear a pretty pretty blue dress. Oh yeah and we are planning a after wedding, disneyland trip with dad! It's going to be soooo much fun!

I MISS YOU!
love always,
Me!

Dear Mom,
3 months oh how the time goes. Its bitter sweet each month that Molly gets bigger, losing you gets further away. I just spend so much time thinking about you, your legacy and love. How you were absolutely the best mom and friend on the face of the earth. How you meant so much to sooo many people, the way that everyone always loved you.

Grandma, Babe, Molly and Jason took a walk down the hiltop hill to the sundial bridge today. Man that hill is alot harder pushing the stroller with 50 pounds in it. But being down on the bridge brought so many memories of times that we went there. The time we spent there with Lauren and Emma. And the early days of Kara. How we never knew what would happen in just a few short years. It's like time was stolen away. And it sucks, and I miss you.... But all I can do is try to make you proud and keep your memory.
Love Always,
Kristen

Dear Mom,
I made cut up hot dogs for the kids tonight. I was telling Kara how you used to cut them p and cook them when I would get home from kindergarten, and we would watch All my children together. Ah to be 5 again. I was just as hooked as you, but I only cared when Jenny was on, and rememebr how I cried when she got blown up in the jet ski accident. Ahh so many good times.
I love you.

Dear Mom,

Another day. You have been gone for two months now. I miss you so much. I wish you were here. Molly is starting to smile more and more. And she is trying to do the roll from her back to her front. But she can't do it yet. Kara and Jason are the same. Just bigger and talk more.
I can't wait to see you again someday. I love you.
Kristen

Dear Mom,
Memories play in my head all day long of you....The most recent one that keeps repeating it's self, is when we went to Byrons t-ball game when I was 9 months pregnant with Kara. And I was sitting in front of you on the bleachers and you were patting my belly saying that Kara or Connor (as we didn't know it the baby was a boy or girl yet) would know who you were because of your pat. That they would know you were their grandma. And Kara does know. She loves you so much.(and she's not the only one).
This is the time of day when I miss you the most. The time where the kids are in bed and I would normally call you and chat up a storm. About what we did that day and catch up. I miss that.
Love,
me